I felt like I lived in a circus. My mood was all over the place, high and low. Happy one minute and sad the next, some days it felt crazy, like all three rings were spinning at one time. One day I was scheduled to start a diet, and then, I refused to stick to the plan. Tomorrow I am supposed to go out with friends, but instead, I plan to ignore the phone when they call to confirm. There were days when I spent hours in tears and other times when I convinced myself that I was cute, competent, and capable of winning the battle. Does any of this sound familiar?
When in the middle of divorce or recovery mode, emotions, thoughts, and feelings are all over the place. I remember wanting to go to a poetry event with high hopes of enjoying the speakers. Instead, I shrunk in my chair and cried because I saw the couples in the audience; they all seemed so in love, so happy.
The point is in the middle of these moments, take heart; things will get better. The first year is not easy, but each day brings new surprises and chances to feel better. You can start a new tradition, dance in the rain, sing in the shower, stay up all night, and watch lifetime movies. Take a nice bubble bath, get a pedicure, read a great book. Take things one moment at a time, and you will make it to the New Year. This holiday season, be kind to yourself because the most critical person in your life is the one you see in the mirror. You must take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else.